______________* my lil secrets

2011-08-14T21:21:00.002+08:00

Today I want to remember how readily you replied your colleague

that im 'the one' when they told you that you shouldnt tie yourself to the first girl you met,

how sure you are when they question you how sure are you and how there's no any hint of uncertainty that im the one that you want to grow old with.

2011-08-11T22:18:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

Its been a while since i last login. Been pwetty busy with work, sch & life. Just to update my future me, its 11Aug 2011 today and next mth on the 27th would officially be my one year in UOB. Life's pretty good so far, gg to work at 11.30am ending work at 4pm then go home shower then meet marc o donnell for dinner b4 heading to our classes at 7pm then gg home tgt. (: Going sch with him is so motivating. And I started taking my license too.

Anyways, we've ballot for a flat this july and our appt for selection would be on 1st Oct. Really didnt expect us to get the number since cher&salt told us that they ballot gazillion times but they didnt get it. Our number is 647, a far cry from isles which we wanna get, calculating the ethnic race plus low levels, we probably wouldnt get the flat. Still, I pray hard that we can get it. Afterall, its been one of the better locations we've seen.

And smthg which is very shaking to me happened and I do want to record it down so that i wouldnt forget about this incident. I witness a situation whereby J slept with another girl, L and A chose to forgive him without even having second thoughts. I cannot uds and I simply cannot believe this, and if future shld anything like that happen to me, I wish to read this and remember what I said today.

Sch has been pretty fun with jess ard and now Im at a crossroad once again, should i get a full time job ? Life changing decisions..

2011-05-03T01:36:00.001+08:00

Me: dear can u not watch video? Very noisy I cannot sleep.

Marc: very soft already.

Me: we are in the same room, no matter how soft I can also hear, I can even hear you breathing. Asking you not to watch video is not unreasonable, asking you not to breathe then is unreasonable.

Marc: ok you win.

Me: I know. (:

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2011-05-02T03:25:00.003+08:00

Finally back to blogging after moving to tumblr and stopping and going back to blogger then to tumblr and i just feel like settling on blogger for now.

I want to record every single milestone of my life. I always feel so happy when i read my archives and relive those memories time and again. its 2nd may at 3:27am now, and im just back from supper and mahjong with des jon and twinnie.

Marc has officially started work now on 27th April 2011 while i had started since 27th sep 2010, time really flies. He has already ORDed, I still remember gg to his POP and now his already out of NS for good. and Im already done with DMS, I just read a post whereby I was complaining that im gonna have saturday classes for a year and now im already done with it.

I guess this milestone is a big one, its a first real job for both of us and we finally can see substantial amount of savings in joint account to pay for our house. We are even delaying driving lessons to save for the downpayment. In the past, savings for joint account is so insignificant, save for so many months to see that pathetic few K, now finally can see a leap.

I will be turning 22 in a about a week or so and i just read this post when i felt jittery turning 20, now im alr turning 22 how scary is it. And what more, this year i get to vote in the general election, more choices, more sacrifices. Srsly hate growing up. During CNY this year my cousin-in-law made a rather insensitive remark to another cousin, she said to my cousin directly in front of all of us, "even though we are of the same age, i accomplished much more in life, i got married and i got pregnant and had a child". Even though at that point of time, everyone just brushed it off, i was like wow, how insensitive is that. I believe everyone wants to get married and have a child but maybe not everyone is as lucky as you? It furthers confirm my fear of growing up, do you know how scary is it that your future turns out to be less great than what you imagine it to be?

Gonna read cleo and sleep, need to blog abt taiwan! wouldnt want to not remember a thing abt it.

2010-10-25T22:02:00.001+08:00

It's not easy to maintain a loving relationship. I do think that we both love each other very much but I don't understand why we fight so often. Even small things like deleting a video we took can make him so mad and yet I don't wanna delete it. Maybe I should so that he won't be angry. Ultimately, it's him that is more impt than the video

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-09-21T03:07:00.001+08:00

LAYN.TUMBLR.COM

Dailies with red

2010-09-19T01:41:00.001+08:00

Srsly? Get lame love lamb???

Hahahahhaa my funny friend! (:

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-09-19T01:37:00.001+08:00

Rejections? I've been through it a million times. Maybe it's time for me to be the one rejecting.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-09-18T00:59:00.001+08:00

Same house, different rooms.
Same guy, different mood.

Notes is my new best friend.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-09-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

The season of birthdays

Jessica

Red

Cheryn

Sissy

Diana

Daphne

Mallory

Happy birthday to all my dearies and hope you girls enjoy yourself very much and Red if you are thinking i left u out, i didnt, you are a girl trap in a man's body..

This is really a broke month for me but it was worth it for each and every one of you.

I <3>

0038hrs I miss my boy

2010-09-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

Why is it that I miss you exceptionally much more tonight? Is it because I hadn't been seeing you much for the past few days or is it because I know I won't get to see you tmr. I'm so weird, when I see you I get so annoyed with you, to be fair, u do like to disturb and annoy me non stop when we are tgt. I vividly remember me pushing you away this morning when you snuggle next to me but now how I wish you are lying next to me. You know I'm not the mushy kind but I do love you.

Sweetdreams, beautiful. <3

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

Cheryn my love

2010-09-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

Cher cher I just notice u change your name in my phone.
Love you much.
Thissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
much..

Hahhahaha
- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-09-05T14:49:00.001+08:00

Otw to meet salt&cher for lunch! (((: selfportraits with my new iphone4 baby! Love the cammie, hates the connection!

What mels bought for me in Korea! Damn cheap! Thanks darling!

My lost found Oreo cereal! Think sg stop importing this which I don't know why. I was damn sad! Mel found it in Korea but the taste is slightly diff, sg's ones are sweeter this nicer..

Happy belated to the love of my life!! My sweet bun! Xoxo, I love u many many!! Let's blorg tgt! Hahaha

- Elaine using BlogPress from
my iPhone

2010-08-27T21:36:00.001+08:00

Otw to downtown east. Not for play but for revision ):

Honestly this sem has been pretty lucky for me. Maybe luck is one thing and I really owe my grades to Red. Not only did I pass my bridging course and CAs, I got As and Bs for them. Honestly I was shocked! I was already expecting to fail bridging econs because I really didn't know how to do and when I check my ans with red, my ans were different.

Anyways with such grades kids gave me motivation to pass this sem and I will be done with DMS! (:

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-08-24T00:21:00.001+08:00

Guess that's how far he is away from me..

Goodnights Earthlings!

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-08-23T21:24:00.001+08:00

Hello, I'm looking for a new boyfriend. Anyone?

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2338Hrs I miss you

2010-08-22T23:40:00.001+08:00

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-08-21T18:40:00.001+08:00

Love the selfportrait cammie of iphone4. :D totally spamming my photos (:

My cutesy stickers which my student gave me haha

Otw to weijie's 21st @fairy point. Say YEAH-HEY-YES! to cake and BBQ. I'm such a sucker for cakes and BBQ.

Sucha busy week! Can't wait for eggzams to end and hopefully our graduation trip can materialise oh prisss!

Who's playing poker on iPhone?

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-08-17T12:11:00.000+08:00

Me: the rice very little, more little than the one at plaza sing

Marc: what did u say? Repeat what you just said

Me: the rice very little

Marc: the rice is much lesser la, cock. What more little?!?!

Dailies with Red the Gay

Cheryn my love

Boyfriend

Dailies with the one who took my heart

Haven been blorgging because I'm looking for a different domain so that I can lock some posts. But so far none of it can lock specific posts using my iPhone and Im blorgging through iPhone more often when I'm on the go.

Maybe I will stick with blogger and change my URL? Srsly, being sucha psycho is so not cool. It's when sympathy overwhelms.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-08-12T15:58:00.001+08:00

Sunrise

1557Hrs Otw to get iphone4 (:

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-08-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

Gonna meet twinny tmr!!! Yays!!!

You know I feel so oppressed because everything which I type or post is under constant scrutiny. Like even though it's my outlet to vent and speak but I can't have a freedom of speech here because of the people who will get implicated. I love you loads and that's why I don't want to put you through that kind of hell. I don't want to see you upset anymore, it breaks my heart so much to know that you are not happy, it torn me when I can sense that u are not being yourself. It's like you lose your vibe, the energy, your love and enthusiam for life. I'm upset because u are upset. I don't know how to make this star shine again, u were once so warm and happy, u have this amazing ability to make everyone else happy around u. You make me love life as much as you did. It's like the star loses it's glow, stop shining. It may sound fictatious but this is really who you are to me. And I want to see that pair of eyes again, that pair of sunshine eyes. I love you.

- Elaine<3 src="http://blogpress.w18.net/e/57414.gif" border="0" align="left">

2010-08-10T15:16:00.003+08:00

MARCUS TAN,

YOU

ARE

GOD-DAMNED

SELFISH

PS: Lets just go Bali and hopefully the curse comes true.

2010-08-10T14:56:00.004+08:00

I was wondering whats the familiar song from cali gurls when I first heard it..

Its Tik Tok! Now Kate Perry's not only get sued from her song title... ):

http://www.omg-facts.com

2010-08-09T23:03:00.004+08:00

Conversation between Desmond & Chels

Desmond: Whats your name?
Chels: If you watch soccer then you will know my name.
Desmond: Manchester....??? Liverpool?
Chels: CHELSY (with a super angry face)

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA

2010-08-08T00:22:00.003+08:00

Another broken relationship due to suffocation from possessivenes today

(right after i blog, i saw the fb status)

I really like you two

Had a HTHT with my fave boy in mts. hah.

And we talked about u, its been a while.

Anyway, its a sign that u shld heed my advice before the your status changes.

possessive boyfriends=psycho

2010-08-07T22:26:00.003+08:00

Survived hell week and the word is "Liberated".
Finally get to have some time to laze around and not feel so tired/headache everyday.'

You guys like to read about my complains right, heres a long one.

Nothing repulses me more than a petty/possessive man.
I dont understand why some people can't be genuinely happy for others.
If you know that someone else is doing better than you or you are jealous of smth, instead of feeling jealous, you should probably be happy for people. Nothing is more attractive than to see a Man with a big heart and accept that others are better than him. Hate it when people tell me stuff like, "so? xxx only what, whats the big deal?". Come on la, Just be happy for people. Dont behave like a loserish loser who is obviously jealous. No one is comparing you two, you feel threatened because you have such a narrow mind. When people share some happy news with you, you think that they are trying to make you feel bad. Tsk!

Next moving on to possessive bfs. Kill me. I was just complaining to marc about this person and I am thankful that he isnt like that, the next thing I know, im not allowed to club. Granted for the fact that I was careless and didnt know how to take care of myself and is susceptible to lechers, still, no one tells me that i cant do this/that.

I was complaining to sissy about possessive bfs and she told me that she has a friend who has to wear knee length skirt and non-sleeveless tops. Bf deleted her facebook account and she isnt allowed to go out/talk to guys. PSYCHO.

Another case. Bf tells her not to go out with her friends. Or when shes out with friends, he calls/smses NON STOP asking her to go home or else he will not sleep. Srsly, sending emotional threats when you are like almost frigging 30? Mid life crisis huh? Please la, you dont have a social life doesnt mean everyone dont have one.

Tells gf not to perform(work/school) so that he can seem to be smarter/capable than her. PSYCHO.

Stalking all her friends' facebook/social channels/conversations. PSYCHO

Getting pissed off over nitty gritty stuff. For instance, the order of your speed dial, the order you take picture with first.. PSYCHO

What kind of a Man behaves like sucha a gu-niang? Controlling your gf is so not cool, behaving like sucha a possessive menopausal bitch irritates the hell outta me. If I am rude, then what are you? Frigging psycho. Before you judge me for my freedom of speech on my own channel, maybe you would like to be a little less sensitive, a little less psychotic, a little less possessive, a little less annoying cuz everyone hates you. Even your own friends know that you are overbearing and totally psychotic, I didnt say that, your friends said so.

Srsly, my advice to you is to watch YES MAN by Jim Carrey and make some friends so that you can have a social life so that you won't feel so bored and start to do stupid things.

And, if you ask your gf to choose between a 10yr friendship with us and you, its just so selfish of you. If you really love a person, you will not do things to make her upset or make her get stuck in a difficult position. What you have towards her its not love. You only love yourself, because you feel empty without her thats why u want her to be with you all the time, to fill up the emptiness in your life. This is selfish, because u love yourself too much that u dont want to get hurt when shes not around.

Think about what I said, if its really true love, you just want someone to be happy, irregardless of whether the person is with you or not.True love exists when you love and sacrifice willingly without expecting any returns. But now, its not love, you said you love her but you expect so many things in return(her company, her total devotion, her time). Its like you expect her to give u smthg in return for the love you put in. An analogy would be Its just like doing charity, u give money without expecting any returns willingly but now, u are more of making an investment, hoping that you will derive smthg good outta it. So tell me, do you love her or you love yourself more?

Like I said, I do not hold true love, I am in a rela and I do expect marc to spend time with me and all. But im working on it, Im glad that Im not as selfish because whenever marc wants to do smthg other than to spend time with me, I will tell him to go for it because I know he will be happy fishing in msia with his friends etc. And I will be happy as long as he had fun even though I may be bored to death at home when hes out. So, will u please change and we will all give you a chance =)

FYI, change doesnt mean like that..

(In the past)
"You cant go out with your friends"

Then now you supposedly change for the better,
"You can go out with your friends of course=)"
(the catch is that I will be angry if u go out and I will spam you with phonecalls and smses asking u to go home or else i wont sleep)

Honey Im sorry to tell you that thats not my definition of change sweetheart, u need to know that change means you need to be less of an A hole and sometimes by changing the way u handle things doesnt make you much of a less A hole. Geddit? You need to try harder!

Dailies with red

2010-08-06T11:46:00.000+08:00

Some people never learn.. He's the one who bet on coffee bean on the spelling of 'deadline'. He insisted it's 'dateline'. And apparently he has been spelling it this way for 23yrs and no one corrected him.

Srsly, u need to buck up to match me so we can be the perfect match!
- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-08-04T22:21:00.003+08:00

You know I have been so busy recently and it has really been hell week for me ):

To make matter worse, I get headaches whenever I work too hard and when I do not have sufficient sleep.

Nonetheless I just wanna be grateful for the people in my life who has been so supportive and they have been pressing me on.

You know who you are.

Esp to my retarded friend, the one whom has been teaching me every single thing and the one whom I owe my grades to. Thanks Red.

Somehow or rather I chanced upon these websites in the midst of studying and they have been really inspirational and some of them I really cant help but to tear a bit. So instead of reading fml before I sleep, I still got more channels to read and now im totally going blind.

http://givesmehope.com/

http://lovegivesmehope.com/

http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/

To the people in my life, just so you know, thanks for always being around.

Picture post

2010-08-01T22:35:00.001+08:00

Breakfast @blanco court prawn mee

Chel has the neatest handwriting

Zonked out kids @Mcnair Road

Chel said i'm wearing a fish net -_- she comments on all my clothes.. Barney dress -_-

Chel's sunshine eyes!

2010-07-29T10:35:00.003+08:00

Someone told me the definition of true love .

I do not hold true love.

"Love" is one word which is overused and often frivolously.

2010-07-24T15:07:00.007+08:00

YOU ARE A PSYCHO.

PSYCHO
PSYCHO
PSYCHO

Its not like we didn't give you any chance, we did, you blew it off and when we tried again, you pushed us away from you again.

So, we tried again but we still accepted you darling for who you are.

We tried to be nice but,

Somehow, you decided,
"hey, why not i will be a dick and continue to screw things up?"

YOU KNOW WHAT?

You are like OSAMA.

He blew the goddamn building and he thinks that he is right.

He insisted that he is right and that the whole world is wrong.

And even when the whole world knows that he is wrong,

he is still living in his world saying that he is right.

Do you get it?

You always think that you are right and that everyone else is wrong.

You think that your weird theory and logic is right.

Fml

Do you know you are making everyone upset?

Yes, everyone including yourself.

When you expect everyone to do according to your wishes,

people does and they are upset doing it but you are still not happy.

You know you've become a burden and that everything about you is depressing.

With you around, you do not bring out the best in people.

You took away the smiles and the little comfort.

I know I don't have the right to comment on how you should lead your life

but if you are making people upset.

It upsets me a lot.

I am so worried and so concern for the wellbeing of someone special.

You have no idea how important how important that is to me.
I don't know who you think you are,

for Christ sake, stop telling people how they should lead their lives!

ALL YOUR FRIENDS ALSO KNOW THAT YOU ARE LIKE THAT LA.

I think I have blogged before that I hate to be controlled and

I hate people making decisions for me.

And, everyone deserves to lead their own life.

You are really a CB.

(at this point of time, im fuming, u're testing my non-existent patience)

I just think that you are from a different planet.

And you just need to find someone else who accommodates to your nonsense.

And maybe you will be happier this way.

And maybe all of us will be happier and not feel so oppressed.

And I know im not supposed to blorg about this but srsly, this is my blorg. I can jolly well blorg anything I wanna blorg. And I've been feeling pissed so I need my outlet to vent and this is the first warning issued from me to you.

Don't test my limits.

I have been damn nice and telling myself that you are nice too.

Anyway I have been damn nice not to mention names and not mention explicitly what is going on. its supposed to be like you think its you but you not sure if im talking about you so when we meet next time, it wont be so awkward.

If you still decide to be a dick and go around asking and quarrelling.

"is she blorging about me?"

"why is she blorging about me"

"im so upset that she said this"

"i never do all those what"

"i where got like that"

"I got changed what"

If you do this, I will not hesitate to break you.

Just read this silently and know that you need to change before everyone leaves you.

STOP YOUR EMO-MOMO NONSENSE.

SUCK IT UP LIKE A MAN LA FOR GOD SAKE.

Stop behaving like a possessive psychotic controlling needy menopausal bitch.

Fuck la, if you still decide to go harass people after reading this, you are just hurting them more and you are just pushing people away from you.

You are already playing with fire and threading on thin line so if you want to mess this up then sayonara la.

Okay, lemme repeat, this post is for someone in school.

Anyway u went over the line, its my first time hearing vulgarities from someone who doesnt swear.

2010-07-23T13:33:00.001+08:00

"I'd rather be sad with you than to be happy without you"

♥

2010-07-21T20:59:00.003+08:00

I just blocked and deleted you from Msn.

2010-07-19T20:38:00.004+08:00

(XY on his knees)

XY:Is your Dad an Artist?

XX: Why?

XY: Cuz' you are a Masterpiece

Srsly, this is damn funny. LMAO

HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Hey, stop saying that Im mean ok, see i didnt even put your name.

Its just, boy & girl.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHHAA

Thats by far the most cliche thing my friend ever said.

You really top the chart la.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
I feel embarrassed for you.

HEHEHEHE

If someone says this to me, I will be like

"What the f?!?!?!?!"

"are you serious?!?!?!"

"seriously, i think u are damn weird and trying too hard"

2010-07-17T01:29:00.001+08:00

We went to the ever famous melben seafood for our crab date (:

25!

Queued to get table, still need to wait for estimated an hour for the food -_- but we were lucky in a way that we managed to get a table first since the people in front of our queue were all in big groups so they have to wait for the bigger tables

The soup is like so frigging delicious! I drank very single drop of it ok maybe because I like those fish soup with milk and meefen so I'm slightly biased towards milkbased soup. Marc loves it too!

We played this while waiting for time to pass. Haha speaking of which, mal u need to reply me on words.

You know the greatest form of love does not come in the verbal/text form of 'i love you'.

Yesterday I asked someone how did you know that he loves you? She just said, I just know la and mentioned a very simple act that her bf does for her. And that to her, it was very sufficient and she's happy.

That leads to me thinking why am I such a difficult gf to please? I take everything that marc does for granted. From the simple things like giving me the bigger crabs, making my meals to getting me a lappy and everything I want etc.

You know everyone tells me that I treat Marc very badly(even my parents and sisters) and I always reply, "so? he still wants to be with me what" or "treat your bf super good doesn't mean he will love you alot, I don't treat my bf like king but he still loves me alot". From this u can see that I never have the intention of being a super good gf. I'm just selfish and always insist on my way because I know Marc always give in. Also you can see that I don't think that there's anything wrong in the way which I treat Marc.

I see so many of my gfs cook and serve their bfs but for me, it's totally opposite. When I wake up, Marc will prepare my breakfast while I washed up. You know this kind of simple things are like super normal to me until I saw J preparing pizza for MK then it strucked me. It's like I'm like living in a dsyfuntional family.

I didn't realised how pampered I am and how much he has done for me. To me, it's very normal but I need to know that not every guy treats their gf this way and he's just being extra sweet. I take the things he does for granted. Once, he was angry with me and so I asked him what must I do so he won't be angry, he said, 'help me take a glass of water'. Guess what, even a simple thing like this I also don't want to do because i know he will still forgiv me even if I don't take for him. With him, i can get away with murder. Oh well, if I'm the one angry, u think he can get away just by taking me a glass of water?

So many times I tell myself I need to shower more love and be a good gf but I always forget about it. Tsk! All you girlfriends are making me embarrassed ):
I have decided to turn over a new leaf starting from this moment!

To me the greatest form of love comes in the doing the daily simple things even when she doesn't deserve it. And putting up with such a imperfect me.

Gonna try to sleep. I think I'm suffering from insomia. I used to be able to wake Marc up for work in the morning but lately I can't get up and slept through with the alarm ringing, this is so weird because I'm a super light sleeper. I guess it's cuz of the insomia which makes me extra tired in the morning.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-07-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

I <3 Cathay. It has the best popcorn and it's cheaper! So sad that the serangoon nex mall won't have Cathay ):

Koi@Chinatown! Marc kept insisting he knows how to go and we went the whole of chinatown then we found it -_-
it was extra satisfying and fulfilling when drinking it.

Found another prawn mee place but not as nice as the blanco court one. Marc was so enthu to try prawn mee with me and I realise how much we have grown to each other. I like hokkien mee, coke cuz of him, he likes prawn me, lemon tea of cuz me and the list goes on. :D

@chinatown
Honestly I don't like chinatown, it's like the roads are so uneven, lack of shelters and it's always so crowded. And I realised I still suck at reading maps, I don't understand why my brain cannot process the image of where am i on the map. ):

Anyway, Chel kept saying that I'm wearing a Barney dress cuz of the colour -_- the things that kids say..

And then It was frogleg porridge at geylang for supper with famy!

Anyway, everyone please keep my cousin-in-law in prayers for good health.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-07-15T16:11:00.004+08:00

This time for Africa!

2010-07-13T23:51:00.001+08:00

Top three signs that my mens' coming:

#1: always hungry, had two bowls of rice and still wanna eat for supper

#2: my pair of darlings hurt so bad

#3: pimples =x

I believe #4 will happen within the next few days

#4: getting annoyed and upset over trivial stuff and start crying

Yay! At least tmr will be a happy day! Despicable me, payday, laptop and baby!

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-07-11T23:49:00.001+08:00

Girly nights with twinny.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

Randoms

2010-07-11T14:08:00.001+08:00

Vannie was so sweet to carry my bag for me since it was so heavy with all my notes for this sem. Van the Man! Hahahahaha. Ok I can see the fumes coming out from her ears oredi!

Pic that Marc took to show me.

Accompanied Marc to buy his fishing reels. Had awesome. Blanco court prawn mee! Haha, shall bring van next time! I was surprised by the number of fishing shops along beach road, i didn't know that there a actually quite a large number of people in sg who fish. Seriously, I thought no one fishes. Anyway fishing is quite an expensive hobby. For instance, badminton just need to buy racket and shuttlecock, for fishing, u need to get the reel, line, rod, hooks, bait, floats and all. And all these don't come cheap! Marc bought a reel for me to go fishing with him, if the day ever comes. I don't even dare to touch dead fish.

Daryl was so eggcited to show me his gold medal! I feel like a proud mom. Haha

My baby is sick again ): my poor girl, always sick so she was on mc. Baby is really growing and learning things fast. She's learning swimming, reads and she can play most of the songs she learns during piano. So proud of her!

The kids are so sweet to take my picture and they want to put as their wallpaper .

Gonna join Marc in bed before waking up for soccer later! Please let it be Spain!!!

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

Beep beep beep

2010-07-09T01:48:00.001+08:00

I couldn't stop laughing at marc's dramatic reaction to ytd's match. Only managed go get this video because the match was so unpredictable and I couldn't video his funny actions in time. This was the ending part while waiting for the match to end. Haha!
He didn't know that i was videoing. Haha

PS: on your speakers.
- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-07-07T22:41:00.004+08:00

Do you understand whats the message?

How he scored points,

#1: Act cute by attempting to apologize in chinese

#2: Apologize

#3: Got me into a laughing mood when I saw his F9 chinese

Conclusion: He knows if he apologizes this way,

I will forgive him cuz I will surely laugh non stop when I see the SMS.

Note to Self: I need to be more firm instead of being so softhearted.

Elaine

2010-07-07T00:18:00.001+08:00

~~Breaking~~
Broken

2010-07-05T11:33:00.000+08:00

Otw to school with my huge NDP tote to put all my notes for this sem!

I feel as though I had just been knocked down by a truck! I don't know how I slept last night but apparently I woke up with a nightmare that a gorilla was chasing me and muscle ache! I have a feeling that I spell muscle wrongly? It looks weird.

Time flies man, it's already July and i can't remember how did time pass so quickly for the first two quarters. This is my last sem and i have school in the day, tuition then bridging class in the night.

I was just telling Marc that i actually enjoy these 1.5 years of his NS life very very much. His NS is like not NS cuz I get to see him almost everyday and he is able to support us with his pathetic pay and best of all, my school isn't like school, I am able to cope with it without much effort. So basically these 1.5 years I feel as though we are just relaxing and everyday is playday for us. Nth much to worry about and we get to go out on dates everyday, movie as and when we want and we get to go out in the day to get away from the hustle and bustle of shopping crowd in the night.

Then reality starts to set in last night cuz today is the start of my final sem, meaning after this sem, UOL starts and his sch will start in Jan if he applies for RMIT, I'm mega sexcited that we will be in the same sch again! :D he has always been a huge motivation for me to go sch since we met! Then it will mean less playtime and we will have to work very hard, study very hard ):

I do hope we can finish this asap and get our flat soon! Why don't have BTO at our desired places!!!!???? Punggol and yishun's BTOs are running low and it's so far for us ):

Anyway I do believe that God has a plan for us and that we will commit this matter unto him and he will take us through! :D

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-07-04T01:22:00.001+08:00

Peicai ignite

NDP in the rain! With the ultimate frogleg poridgge!

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-07-02T15:16:00.001+08:00

"I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure.

I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle.

But if you can’t handle me at my worst,

then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.."

-Marilyn Monroe

SO, FISH YOU TOO !

2010-07-02T01:20:00.001+08:00

That night when we were eve's bday chalet, Marc and I went for a walk to get away from the smoke and heat.

Me: this is the place that you fell in love with me leh
Marc: I already fell for you before the camp already!
Me: awwwww

He still remembers where he first set his eyes on me!

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-06-29T11:46:00.005+08:00

Fun times with my retarded friends. heh. with the exception of twinnylove.
We were supposed to cheer Mr Anns up. Hah, seems that he got more irritated than happy.

Anyway, SUCK IT UP GU NIANG.

Posing with your teddy makes you more gu niang.

Whats with me attracting gay friends? hahaha.

2010-06-25T01:00:00.001+08:00

Randoms with Stoop

2010-06-25T00:29:00.004+08:00

"There's a danger in loving somebody too much"

Baby,

Sometimes Love Just Aint Enough

This is so true, sometimes love just aint enough.

Quite a while back, this song was describing exactly how things were.

Once again after listening to it again in the car with Red,

loads of memories came back to me.

I wouldn't say that Love is the only thing which constitutes to a relationship but its the core factor? But it ain't enough, once you are zap back to reality, you realise that Love isn't the only thing which keep two people happy.

2010-06-23T22:55:00.001+08:00

Randoms with Marc.

Lucky day for us! Getting paid to do nothing!

This hols has been so busy for me, I haven even got the time to stay home a whole day to laze or movie marathon.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-06-22T17:20:00.001+08:00

This is my life. Who are you to interfere and judge the way I lead my life? If I want to lead my life this way then let me be. I'm so sick of people telling me how should I lead my life. I'm so sick of people telling me that I shouldn't do this and I should do that. Like I said, it's my life, even if I want to ruin it according to you, it's my problem so leave me alone! Being close to me doesn't give you the authority to take over my life. Similarly, don't give me the excuse that because you care I should lead my life this way. Give me a break everyone! I hate it when people say they care and they use this as an excuse to tell me the what's and whatsnots.
For the last time, it's my life, so let me be!

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-06-20T21:33:00.001+08:00

(blog about this in Jan but didnt post cuz it was quite personal but decided to post now since I have nth to do)

Lets talk about sex, love-making or whatsoever.

I dont usually talk about something so personal and private to anyone, not even to my girls thats right, I feel pretty tensed up and uncomfortable talking about it.

The reason is simple... Whichever fact you tell people, they will surely have opinions.

if you tell them about your intimate details, im afraid people will judge you as being someone with no morals, very suay bian that kinda thing.. on the other hand,
if you tell them that nothing happen between you and your bf, keeping it for marriage, they think that you are the most boring couple on earth, you are an old-fashioned nun and that you are so conservative, party-pooper.. you get my drift?

Anyway, I am not the ambassador for marriage before sex neither am I advocating pre-marital sex, I just feel that the kinda thing is very unique to individuals and not everyone has to take the same stand. And whichever stand that you take doesn't make you any more morally superior nor im-so-cool-and-you-are-so-obiang. Different people have different stands because they have different religions, different chemistry in the relationships and different kinds of perceptions on sex.

I feel that the whole marriage before sex thing is kinda overrated. What keep it for your husband kinda thing? How many people get to marry their true love? I swear that everyone that I've asked told me that their First gf/bf was the most memorable and special to them, i mean you might love that person you are marrying but there is a possibility that you've loved someone else more... just that things did not work out(maybe he passed) and you find someone that treats you well enough but does not necessarily mean you love him the most. Its a huge chunk to digest, but slowly think about what I say, it all makes sense.

How do people know that they will marry the person they love most or What makes you think that the person you are with now is the one you think you love the most?

No matter what decision you make, you should make one that you know you wont regret. Just be sure that you aint force into it, it should be a two-way thing.

Lets have a senario if you dont understand what im saying, lets put xiaotiantian and me as an example. We will be celebrating our 7th anni this year, so much shit has happened to us and its really with love and the grace of God that we managed to stay together for so long. Yes we are very much in love and in this case if he dies or anything, will I regret since I never lost IT to him, and I have to lose IT to someone whom I might not love as much? Yeah, I might just marry him because since I cant have my xtt, it doesnt matter who I marry anymore. Speaking of which, if you find someone who tells you that you are worth the wait, then why am i so bothered with what others have to say..

Oh right, I am so bothered because people cant stop asking me. And whatever I say, they dont believe me. Thank you for having so much interest in my sex life but since you don't believe what I say then don't ask. Just form opinions based on your own imagination.

Someone once asked me directly if we are sexually active (i keep deleting and backspacing but I still cant find another word which I am less embarrassed to type on my blog)

And I said, "no"

Her reply was, "omg. then what you guys do? isnt it very boring"

I was astound by what she said, to be honest, I almost died. There is a hundred and one thing to do besides that my dear!

And no worries, I will blog when it happens. Afterall, i guess it will be memorable as we have been keeping for it. All the anticipation and suspense will make everything extra special.

Anyway to end off, take however long the time is needed for you to find out if you really love that person and if that person really loves you. At least when you look back, you did give it to someone you loved once. Btw, its not the Chanel bag he bought shows that he loves you, its the littlest things he does every single day. Be responsible too! Shotgun wedding this Aug!

2010-06-20T20:55:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time and I dont blog as frequently. My phone's with Marc thus no pics for today. I know there has been an increasing number of people complaining that I dont reply smses nor calls but I really cant help it ): Marc and I alway swap phones so its better for you all if you sms or call both numbers in order to get me. But fear not! We are getting a private line tmr! Call this number and you can find me! I might divert the phone line to whichever phones which Im carrying that day so you definitely can find me through that number! Speaking of which, I think Im the only one in the house who uses the house phone.

Anyway, I can go on forever whining about us being broke. Whenever we hit a new thousand in the account, we will spend it on something. Then the money doesnt reach the new thousand digit. Looking at the money growing in the bank makes me hesitant about travelling. The amount of money I spent on shopping scares me.

This is posted with a depressing mood. Headache, swollen pair of darlings and my iphone withdrawal symptoms' killing me.

2010-06-17T22:05:00.001+08:00

My heart is heavy and I don't deserve this.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-06-16T12:24:00.000+08:00

Check out my cutesie themes hahaha!

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-06-15T11:45:00.002+08:00

So sorry for the long absence. Marc has been sick for the past week and I was caught busy with exams. My first week of holidays was spent meeting up with peeps, bridging course and movie marathon with marc. He was granted with two days MC and like what he said, six days of romance just zoomed past without us realising.

Check out the my bites from the bedbugs. Those are fresh bites. Now there are like scars on my back, hands, legs. So sad ): I didnt really have much scarring on my body before. Now I look like a walking freak ): Im trying not to scratch them but the bites are different from mozzie bites, its extremely itchy. Last night I saw the bedbug with my own eyes, after biting me for weeks, I finally seen it. I suspect it came from the new bed.

I am so upset with the scarring ): Not many pics cuz I wasnt in the mood of pic-taking.

Bridging class later on. 7-10pm Thank God for Red otherwise it will be more draggy.

0050 still at ttsg

2010-06-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2234hrs still at ttsh

2010-06-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

Armed with Milo and notes. I'm a superwoman.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2107hrs

2010-06-02T21:08:00.001+08:00

Ttsh with Marc ):

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

Kcuf

2010-06-02T13:29:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna stop using the most versatile word in the dictionary. The word which can be used as a verb, a noun, adjective, and adverb.

It's gonna be like what the fish or like what spongebob says, what the barnacles!

I had one with kmc, it's called silly bulldozer cuz councillors can't swear.

Tmr's finance paper, the paper I feel most confident in. I already feel like my exams have ended.

But I ~~drag~~ dread the day you leave for lighthouse.

~~dateline~~ deadline

My spelling is getting from worst to worser hahahah

- Elaine<3 src="http://blogpress.w18.net/e/57414.gif" border="0" align="left">

Unisexes

2010-06-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

0116hrs

2010-05-31T01:20:00.001+08:00

Handmade dinner from Marc at 0116hrs. Toasted cheese with loads tomatoes!

I'm gonna move back home to see if I'm getting mozzie bites or am I having rashes because nothing else works. We don't see any mozzies, no bed bugs. When baygon and shieldtox don't work. I have new bites every morning and I'm freaking scarred!!! Sleeping with mosquito coil tonight. The smoke's getting into my eyes ):

1755hrs

2010-05-29T18:11:00.001+08:00

I treated you like my soulmate but apparently you think otherwise.

That's the reason why I hate to make friends, getting yourself emotionally bonded to someone then you have to detach yourself from them so you won't get hurt.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-05-28T22:53:00.001+08:00

I'm so afraid to go to bed for the past 2 weeks. I have been a buffet for those mosquitoes. Feeding frenzy. I wake up every morning with new bites.

Baygon and shieldtox doesn't work. I've googles how to kill mosquitoes, how to cure mosquitoe bites, how to kill mosquito in a room, lifespan of mosquito.

I am going bonkers. I don't get enough sleep cuz I spend my whole night scratching and waking up.

I don't have the energy to study. I am going mad.

Fuck!

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

LOOK AT YOURSELF AFTER WATCHING THIS

2010-05-28T17:17:00.000+08:00

I am ashamed of myself.

2010-05-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

2121hrs Starbucks with Red

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-05-23T23:57:00.003+08:00

Today as I was clearing my emails for the first time, I came across this email Marc sent me before we got together. And it mentioned something about he likes my blurness. And now, he gets so pissed off and helpless whenever my blurness and clumsiness come into our daily life.

My heart still pounded very fast when I was reading the email cuz I have long forgotten the content in it. I guess Im still very infatuated with you.

I was just thinking to myself.

Its so easy to fall in love with someone that is so perfect, good looking,

nice character, intelligent and all.

But it takes a greater love to fall for someone imperfect. Isnt it?

Comparatively, everyone likes the popular girl in school but it takes a greater love and effort to like someone who is unpopular and often label as 'weird'. Isnt it?

Love is indeed a strange and funny thing, even the imperfections in him seem so perfect in my eyes. Like the way he says the spongebob's 'i love you! ehhhahahahahaha!". it may be very childish to many but to me, its the way I like it.

My sissy always say that we are very childish but thats the way we are, always so merry and we like to joke and be joyful. His sissy thinks that her brother is dirty whenever he comes back from work or soccer. But i will still run up to him and hug him and get my kiss whenever he's back. Nope, I dont think he's dirty, I think he look great.

"Some couple, you know they will last. You just know it."

from the pictures they take, the smiles on their faces.

I remember vividly reading this blog of a girl. Comparing the photos with her current bf and her ex, you can see the vast difference. The smile on her face is so different, you can tell that she's genuinely happy. The picture depicts clearly how happy she was at that point of time.

Whereas for the pics with her ex bf, it was just a simple smile, for picture thats it.

Im glad that you are so happy in all the pics we take.

I am so happy. So happy to eat pizza and watch spongebob with you.

So happy to wait for you to come back.

So happy to have you in my life.

I know you are reading this, I am truly happy sunshine.

And I know you are happy too.

♥

2010-05-23T21:48:00.001+08:00

(on the phone with marc)

Marc: wait wait wait, i need to pee first

Me: ok

Marc: shhhhh

Me: did you just pee into the sea with me on the phone?

Marc: hahahahaah

Me: fuck!

2010-05-23T19:03:00.002+08:00

Marc just did the most retarded thing. he called me,

Conver 1

Me: Hello?

Marc: Hi you busy ah?

Me: Haha call to spot check is it

Marc: No la, i call you back later.

Me: Then you busy still call me for what

Marc: Call you to tell you that Im busy. HAHAHAHAHA

Me: -_-'''

Convers 2

Me: I promise I will treat you like a princess

Marc: I am a slave with a princess status

Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAH. So true...

2010-05-22T13:03:00.002+08:00

Okay just a quick one before I attempt to study. Cant I stop procrastinating, btw my eyesight has worsen by a lot. I only wear specs when Im reading the whiteboard and watching telly but now, my eyesight is so bad till I need my glasses even for everyday routine and I suspect is because I spend an hour reading on my iphone in the dark since I've gotten it. Its like a routine to read fml, jokes and bible using the apps before I sleep everynight and now Im paying for it.

Who wants to sponser me lasik because Im so not into lenses and glasses. And we blew close to 1k ytd at Ikea's, now we need to resave the money for HK. SOB SOB SOB ):

Ytd was also the day that marc can say anything to me without me feeling upset irritated or whatever, just not the word "study". I feel so pekchek whenever he asks me to study. Okay. Im gonna attempt to study. ):

Ikea

2010-05-21T21:09:00.001+08:00

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-05-20T18:00:00.001+08:00

Whole night of cheap thrills with Cher and Red at airport.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-05-19T22:12:00.002+08:00

i was reading xx's blog and marc was beside me, and he said

Marc: she really very ugly leh
Me: Yeah lor but her bf very cute
Marc: yeah
Me: Why all the ugly girls get cute guys and all the ugly guys get cute girls?
Marc: So you are implying that I am ugly? (pout and give sad face)
Me: So you are saying that im cute??
Marc: of course you are!
Me: awwwwwww.

Hahahahaah

2010-05-18T20:08:00.001+08:00

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

My Strawberry shortcake

2010-05-18T13:47:00.000+08:00

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-05-17T20:55:00.001+08:00

Red I swear you're in love with my bf! Hahahahhaha

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-05-17T14:51:00.002+08:00

"You've got the elmo and I've got the cookie monster, *winks winks*"

2010-05-16T23:29:00.001+08:00

YOU REPULSE & DISGUST ME.

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-05-16T13:21:00.006+08:00

My Sunshine <3

I think I forgot to pen down how secretly he tried to hide this party from me for the past one month, and he really act like he doesnt care about my birthday for so long and make me so sad ):

hahaha, one point of time, I told him that I put on my MSN Nick "boyfriend for sale" and also nobody wants to buy him. HAhahaha. then he was so sad.

After all these, he told me, "its so hard to hide things from you, for the past one month i have to act as though i dont care, i tell myself to suck it up so that you will be truly surprise"

"im so sorry that i couldnt tell you that your sunshine has smth planned for you and you were so sad for nth, i was so heartbroken to hear you so sad you knw" --Mal

thanks everyone! (:

gonna join my sunshine in bed before gg out later! <3

im as happy as a lark!

Why Men marry Bitches?

2010-05-15T23:44:00.001+08:00

"she's the woman who gives blindly because she wants so much for her attention to be reciprocated............
And what is this recipe for? Disaster"

- Elaine<3 from my iPhone

2010-05-14T21:02:00.024+08:00

♥MY SURPRISE 21ST! ♥

(gosh this' gonna be a long one for memories sake)

OMG. I cant wait to blog about this even though I still haven received the pics yet. Well, lemme just try to recall and blog them down before my poor memory eats up all the nitty gritty details. :D

Shall start from Friday, 7th May 2010.

Bought back lunch for him and watched Valentine's day, (note to mal, no one is gg to ask u for reviews anymore hahaha!)
Around, 3pm Marc left for work and I was like, huh? why cuz he went gym in the morning and usually if he goes gym in the morning, he can go work later around 5.30pm. But I didnt suspect anything cuz he said he had alot of admin work to do, and I didnt ask much cuz I was rushing for tuition also.

then he called me 5 mins after we parted to ask me where am I (i was wondering why he called cuz he usually call me when he reached the station not when we just parted). Still, i didnt suspect anything. HAHA.

Then he called me in the night again as usual but we chatted for around half an hour then he had to scoot off, this is expected, doing station means less talk time and more admin for him. Called me before he sleeps at 12am, and didnt chat for long cuz he said he was tired.

8th May 2010
The next morning,
We were supposed to meet in the morning for breakfast, so I calculated the timing, since he was in the station(instead of out of sea) he should leave station latest by 8.45am and reach Compass at latest 10am? But in the end, he kept delaying and we meet around 12plus cuz he said he had to carry a lot of stuff to this place because he has a Team building function in the night.
Then I was super duper black faced to him and decided not to buy his 50cents rice cuz he was so late. Then I made him run here and there to get my soybean with pearls and all.

Reached home, finish up our Valentines' Day while having lunch. Then I asked him why didnt tell me about the Team function earlier, so last min then tell me, I didnt have clothes. Then he still show me this SMS from his friend which I cant be bothered to read, i glanced and it says "team charlie....." So i grumbled and say so last min, we napped after lunch from 2ish to 4ish. Woke up super grumpily cuz I was so tired and I didnt have enough sleep.

He woke up earlier than me, (usually he wont wake up until I try to murder him at 8pm) and asks me to faster go bathe, must wear nice nice, say supritendent, inspector, IO all coming.
He chose my dress, ask me to wear the belt and must wear blazer and pumps, must put make up all. Say cannot embarrassed him in front of his friends. (this is the most weird cuz of the many times i've gone out with his friends, he doesnt really care what I wear) i still wanna wear stockings cuz i thought i will be cold in the function room what. -_-
and when i asked him where are we going, he says he its like a place, dont know how to describe.. So i decided not to wear stockings cuz it was damn hot even after my bath.

So took 89 and I kept saying that im very hungry, want to go E! Hub to buy things to eat. Then we walked and walked and walked, until my feet had blisters cuz of the pumps. (THATS WHY I ALWAYS WEAR SLIPPERS HOKAY) so stop complaining about me and my love for slippers. haha. Then after a long walk, he says we are reaching, just after the bend at the road. I saw the chalet then I asked him why he doesnt know that that place that we are going is a chalet? We went there for Fang & Fleming's ROM what.. he said he didnt see the sign outside the chalet.

While walking in, I kept complaining how hot and I and that everyone is wearing casual, im the only one in blazer. Then he said that we are going to the M block, I started singing "M is for Marcus the Moron", giggling to myself. I was surprised that he didnt rebuke me(probably too nervous), usually he will say rubbishy stuff back to me.

Then he said, ok, its this one, M-O4, I saw a birthday banner outside the chalet and that the doors of the chalet is all closed. So I told him it's the wrong chalet, cuz got the bday banner, confirm wrong chalet, I asked him to go call his friend and ask for the right one -_-

Then I peeped through the sides of the curtain(curtain not drawn properly) then I said, confirm wrong chalet, inside like having party, dont have those high rank ppl leh. (cuz I just glanced in, didnt recognize anyone) Then Chel, peeped out from the door, I thought I saw Chelsy but I thought maybe kids look alike and that she's just the daughter of his colleague or something. Then I tried to look inside somemore, I realised that, the curtains are also close properly, dont even have any slit. Marc asked me to open the door, I kept saying I dont want, I thought he was shy to open the door cuz we were late (cuz i always make van open the door when we are late for lecture, so embarrassing). Next, he tried to open the door and it was locked. In the end, he opened the door and asked me to go in so I went and everyone screamed SURPRISE!

(this part is a bit blurred, everything happened too fast, i cant remember)
OH MY TIAN. hahaha I was shocked and I looked around, saw many faces, familiar faces. Then I thought to myself, Am i dreaming? So in my mind, I was trying to recall what I did in the day, thinking if its a dream. So i flashed back, I was home last night and I woke up in the morning to go meet marc, so it isnt a dream! And next, i didnt know how to react so I just stood there and thank God baby(dahlia) walked over and hand me a present and I warmed up a little.

Thanks MEL FOR TAKING PICS FOR ME! (:

This is what I wore thinking that its a function, what a joke, everyone was in shorts and slippers -_-

M-04 Thanks baby for all the deco.

He said he cut these paper strips by strips during work, there's like hundreds of them.

Awwww. So touched!

He was busy entertaining my guests that night. Giving them drinks and all.

Wore his crocs since my pumps were killing my toes..

Chelsy, total CHORLOR-NESS.

She literally just squats there and eat -_-

If her mom sees this, probably will kill her.

Claire: Gugu eat my peas for me!

Me: HAHAHAHA, take photo take photo!

My door gifts. So sweet of my sissy!

Marc entertaining Genny.

My card!

Baby said he printed out those words and cut them during work.

Still tell me he still got plan colour combination,

print on A4 first then photocopy onto A3.

Poor Eunice's eyes got stung by the light sticks.

Till now, I still have no idea how she manage to break the light sticks.

I wore so many of them as my bangles still didnt break.

My naughty nephew and nieces who refused to take a proper shot with me.

So I tickled them!

Door Gift, Sissy's idea but marc's friend helped to make.

Thanks Salt, Raymond and Sardine!

No idea whats with that face.

Mally and Nana!

Marc's so happy that night.

happier than the bday girl. hahaha

Poor baby looked so tired. Didnt sleep for two nights ):

Both of us stayed in the chalet that night while my SIM friends went to drink and seesha.

He was so tired and couldnt stop snoring while I didnt sleep well at all.

Woke up at 8am? Pack up and check out!
Headed over to pasir ris for breakfast and home (:

He bought all these, so wasted to throw away right?

So I wanna keep, can use for twinny's bday cele. haha

CHeck out my FROZEN STRAWBERRY! SO PRETTY!

Really thanks alot to my sunshine! Because I didnt expect anything. Keep complaining to mal and evon, haha, so embarrassing. I asked him today why is he so happy on my bday since the girls were talking about it, he just said, see you so happy Im also happy.

Simple words yet it means so much.

On my actual bday 11th May he said this to me.

I really dont know what to do if one day should you just leave me.

♥

2010-05-09T21:48:00.002+08:00

I know what beats the 10grand for my 21st!

Walking right into my surprise party from marc = PRICELESS!!!

Thoughtfulness from marc > 10 Grand

After this, everyone seems to be telling me that im the naughty one and marcs the good one. So what now? Everyone's not TEAM ELA anymore? Everyone's TEAM MARC?

I will have him jail for treason and then have everyone back on TEAM ELA again.

heh.

OKAY. Melly's back. gonna ask her for my pics and blog!

2010-05-09T13:34:00.000+08:00

Now Marc keeps saying that I don't love him. He keeps saying that I can't even bear to spend 50cents on him. Hahaha mega funny..

Then today when we were watching ipman, i was saying that ipman and his wife very boring like the couples last time don't talk one. Then he says good what, submissive unlike some monkey.. Then I pretended to be angry and all then he says, dear ah u see your happiness always cannot last more than 12hours. Ytd still say will be good to me cuz I planned u a party now you are doing stuns again.

Heh. Me, submissive? How can it be? Maybe one day when I am drunk or get possessed.... Hahahaha

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2010-05-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

0133hours. Marc is soundly asleep but I still can't sleep in this foreign place. Today I wAlked into my own surprise bday party. I am totally caught unaware and extremely surprised! And While Marc is sleeping now, I can't help but to feel guilty for the way I treat him. Like today for instance, I don't even want to spend an additional 50cents to pay for white rice for his fish soup cuz I was thinking that at home should have white rice, he just spent 1k plus for me on this party (he's down to a mere 20bucks in his bank) and he's gonna give me a big present which is worth a 5 digit sum on the actual day. I feel so ashamed of myself and for the way I treat him. ):

Then when everyone left, we had our heart2heart talk before he fell asleep..
Then I asked him, "u really love me a lot is it?" and he just gave a really sincere, "yar then what?"
He hasn't sleep since he woke up ytd morning preparing this for me.

More about the presurprise and surprise next time. I need to blog all these down before I forget and be spoilt again.

I am so touched and I still can't believe for all that has happen.. Omg

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2010-05-08T13:57:00.001+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

10k for my 21st!!!! Beat that!
I can't breathe.. For real?

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2010-05-06T19:26:00.002+08:00

I have been doing every single freaking day under the shitty weather. Its insane I tell you. Most of the projects submission are back to back and I cant even breathe. Not to mention the horrible weather which drives every inch of my body crazy. I need to cut my hair and trim my bangs. I just submitted one today and there's one submission tomorrw.

Last night was so funny, it was already gdb hot (we dont slp in aircon cuz both of us have serious case of sinus) then marc rolled over to my bed, blocking my fan plus emitting his body heat. TMD. Guess what, I perspire until i woke up and I was so pekchek! Then I push him inside to my bed and slept on his bed, hahahaha. Then he still can wake up in the morning and told me, wah dear very hot leh.

Then this afternoon, Van and I went for our little expedition. Loooking for this nice prawn me near Bishan, another gdb hot day. I kept complaining and whining so I took out my umbrella then she says I very auntie, wth, next time you got lao ren ban then dont complain to me okie. we had two pics, its in her phone.

What a pointless post, I am just procrastinating my project. Sharks. I am so tired, had school and tutoring and now I need to start on my project. I take back those words I said about enjoying to meet deadlines and all. Ok, enough of ranting, gonna have dinner and start work. fml

2010-05-05T17:16:00.010+08:00

This is for you, Kmc.

The one whom taught me much, the one whom I grew up with, the one whom I speak freely to of my dreams without the fear of being laugh at, the one whom makes me feel special, the one whom told me that I am very special, the one whom teaches me how to win in a fight, the one whom teaches me how to fight back, the one whom tries to mend things back, the one whom holds on to this friendship when i left, the one whom talks to me about sex, the one whom pick me up from when I fell, the one whom i sleep next to so comfortably, the one whom knows i love spag and she will request it for lunch when she knows im coming over, the one whom tells me that it ok to say fuck you to people who deserve it, the one whom regard my problems as her own, the one whom remembers all the promises she made to me, the one whom is not afraid to share her testimony with me, the one whom loves God and brings me closer when I was drifting, the one whom i love,

The one whom is special to me too.

♥

2010-05-04T11:44:00.001+08:00

Santa and me
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2010-05-01T22:49:00.001+08:00

Marc's chunky monkey and my choco fudge brownie (:

Gave myself a day break last night since I was finally done with my report. It was marc's first off as well and initially we wanted to watch iron man 2 but i changed my mind. Decided to laze at home since it will be a busy week for me next week, 2 submissions plus loads of tuitions.. Oh man..

Collected my reg mail and bouught home our sinful mac. It was a triple happy day, done with my report, received my shopping loots after so long and had Marc the entire day (:
Came home and starhub had all channels free watch and we watched movies after movies, loads of horror and Stephen chow's comedy...

Woke up this morning early just to watch more movies, haha, had breakfast in bed with Marc. Oh so happy day. And finally gotten my ben and jerry's after so long, my report was about bnj and I kept drooling over it. Finally get to eat it!! Gonna have ice cream in bed with marc while waiting for my horror to start (:

Wow.. Seems like a boring weekend to u but I couldn't ask for more.. Hadn't got the time to rest and just slack home with Marc.. Contentment is the key. I had been so busy these few weeks and when Jess asked me when to meet up i told her can meet her around her house coffeeshop for dinner-_- it's my birthday dinner, damn, I totally forgot that my bday is in less than 2 weeks.. So not looking forward to it.. I have two submissions and at least 5 tuitions on the same week cuz it's the kids' mid years SA1. Oh man. I foresee to have a sad 18th.. Oops how old am I again?dammit, don't remind me..

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2010-04-30T00:30:00.002+08:00

I have a pocket full of sunshine <3

2010-04-28T22:16:00.003+08:00

RIP, Sweetheart.

It takes a lot of courage to say goodbye... forever.

And you did.

2010-04-28T19:19:00.001+08:00

This is what Marc does to me everyday if he did not see with his own eyes that I left for school during his working days.

And even when I told him that I am in school, he will call and make sure that my surrounding sounds like I am in school and not at home.

I can totally see that our children will have no life in future. They can't tell stories like 'oh I always ponten and take mc from polyclinic one.'

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2010-04-28T00:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you just have those crappy days and today was my crappy day. I was in a lot of pain, tummy pain and I still have a 10 pages report to finish. I took so many medicine today and its just so wrong and unhealthy.

If only I can share with you, I will.

2010-04-27T18:31:00.001+08:00

Any day worth remembering. I was just making a passing remark that I feel like eating cake and Marc bought me my favourite cake for me today!!! Sucha pity I can't eat cuz I'm still having tummypain! ):

10 pages to OTQM to go, someone just kill me. submission's tmr and I spent the whole day resting cuz of my stomach. Sharks.

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2010-04-26T19:22:00.004+08:00

(i rmb this scene! its about spongebob leaving for sch)

Blogs are kept to contain many memories. I have one today which I want to remember.

Today is marc's first off day, we had macs for lunch in front of the com with a good comedy (Home Alone) playing while it was pouring outside.

Then we had our cosy time falling asleep together with the breeze from the rain.

Then waking up again to see his cute face next to me.

The simple things in life that make us so happy.

♥

This pic above clearly depicts us to a certain extend, haha.

When I go to school, he will wait for me to come back. When he leaves for work, I will wait for him to come back.

And if that isn't all, we talk for hours on the phone when we are apart like.

So dumb you may say but one day, I am sure you will too find someone that makes you feel this way.

Someone whom is so special that even doing absolutely nothing with him makes you happy.

"Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way"

2010-04-19T18:22:00.009+08:00

Sorry for the long absence ): I have been pretty lazy to be honest and my life is pretty boring to you ppl but to me, I am happy(: everyday with my xtt (: Paintball session tmr!

Gugu's burial today, below are the pics.. She was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer a month ago, and now she's gone. so please do go see a doc if you are feeling unwell, do not think that its those normal illness. Pics below. Warning once again if you are superstitious.

WARNING!!!
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At Potong Pasir

My first Burial experience, usually's cremation. (both my uncle and marcs' grandma)

The 'lot' was already prepared, fully cemented inside. Lot 1071

Very compact space, graves were side by side without much walking space, if the grave is in the middle, it kinda means that you have to step on other graves to get across

Lowering the coffin down. Burial Coffin is much bigger, heavier and expensive. the coffin is much larger and higher than the coffin of marc's grandma(cremation).

Putting in the flowers after prayers

filling the soil, pic not so clear cuz i was standing further cuz of the dust and soil when its dropped

eveling the soil

Putting in the concrete 'cover'.

Then the tomb will arrive in a week's time to fit on top of the 'cover'

Dear gugu, pray that you are safe in our heavenly father's hands and we will miss you very very much.

Ps: whoever said iphone's cammie sucks probably doesnt know how to take good pics -_- good choice not to bring cam and use my phone's cam.(:

2010-04-16T10:17:00.001+08:00

My sunshine has the kindest heart. Just this morning when he was already late for work, I saw him still on the comp transferring stuff. Later on I called him and asked him what was he doing, he said he was transferring the movies in his comp to the harddisk. When I asked further why (cuz we've already finishe watching those movies), he said he wanna put in the station's comp so other people can watch when they are bored. Awwwwww

School has been pretty busy for me and remember 3 years ago, my uncle passed away, yesterday my Gugu passed away in the hospital. Everything happened so fast, we just knew that she contracted cancer say about 2 weeks ago? Now she's gone. ): she has always been a dear to my sisters and I, knitting us bags and all.

Ps: van laughs at everything I say, even those jokes made on her -_-

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2010-04-06T23:23:00.001+08:00

Daily retardedness

(i was super pissed with him for tickling me non stop)

Me: chen tian li u better stop it
(he paused for a while with a confused face)
Marc: oh man. I forgot my name is chentianli, it's been a few years since someone call me chentianli. I was wondering who the hack you talking about when u said chentianli
Me: -_-
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True blue Monday blues

2010-04-05T08:04:00.001+08:00

The only redeeming factor of today is that my xtt made breakfast for me before he left for work just now. Even though by the time when I woke up, the food and my milk tea had turned cold, it still warms my heart very much when I ate them (: and going to school doesn't seem that bad afterall (: